Any time a child dies, it hits me straight in the heart so when one from our own small adoption community dies, it strikes so close to home that it shakes me to my core. It's almost too much to imagine that it's Steven and Mary Beth Chapman's little Maria Sue. I mean, if anyone has enough good karma or positive credit with God to keep something like this from happening, it's them.
Steven Curtis Chapman knew how important it was to Dance with Cinderella while you can. Through his beautiful and insightful song, he helped all of us appreciate how fast "the clock will strike midnight" and our children will grow up and be gone. I'm so grateful to him because I often get caught up in the hectic daily stuff and forget to cherish all the little moments with my kids. Obviously, he and Mary Beth would trade nearly anything in the world for another hectic moment with Maria. I can hardly find words to express how sorry I am that the clock struck midnight so early in this family.
I'm always trying to make some sense of tragedies so I'm searching hard for some reason for this one. I know the real reasons that bad things happen aren't often revealed to us but that doesn't stop me from searching or believing the reasons exist somewhere. This morning, I'm loving my children a little bit more and hugging them a little bit harder. When I pick them up from school at noon, I'll be a little more grateful that I'm blessed to be their Mommy. Tonight, we'll have dinner with Michael and we'll finish the day by reading "Shaoey and Dot". I love that book but I always cry when we get to the part about the babies "saddest cry of all" so I have to hand the book to Andrew for him to finish. Now I'm not sure I'll ever be able to get through any part of this book at all. But in honor of Shaoey's little sister, Maria, I'll try harder to be strong.
More about Maria here: http://chapmanchannel.typepad.com/inmemoryofmaria/