It's been quite an adventure. Not an especially fun one but an adventure nonetheless. Here's a quick pass at Maddy's Big Day.
So, there are the highlights. It was a pretty amazing experience but not one I hope to ever have to repeat. Frankly, it scared the hell out of me.
I used to be a deputy sheriff and I knew that I couldn't knock on any mother's door and ask if she was the mother of So-And-So without giving her heart failure. So I always prefaced my first question with a statement that her kid was fine. Why don't Doctors lead with this declaration too?
At one point, the Surgeon came to the waiting room and asked me to step outside and I fully expected him to tell me something devastating -- something that would change my life forever (I've gotten this type of news before). My heart was pounding so hard that I could barely process his words and when it was finally clear that Maddy was actually okay, I was too relieved to voice any protest about his absolutely crappy message deliver technique. Why didn't he just say the surgery was successful first?
Maddy did really well. Her palate is closed and now the inside of her mouth looks just like everyone else's. I'm happy about this but I'm also just a little bit sad because the tiny flaw they fixed wasn't a flaw to me. She was already more than perfect in my eyes and in my heart. And that little fissure in the roof of her mouth was the sole reason she was on the Special Need list at the exact moment we were looking for her. I don't expect anyone to understand what I mean when I say I'll miss her cleft palate. I know how strange that sounds but I love every part of my children and the unique parts tend to stand out the most. This part of Maddy is gone and even though I'm not sorry about that, I'll miss it.
This is part of Maddy's story and all the pictures above are for her. Someday she'll want to know more about this and I'm glad I'll have photos and text to share with her.
I didn't think I could possibly love her more but my love for her grows deeper every day and this was a very special bonding experience for us. Daddy and I are not in competition for the love of our kids but Maddy has always been "Daddy's Girl" so I'm especially honored that she specifically asked for me after surgery and I'm glad I could be there for her and give her comfort. She was so strong through all this but also so vulnerable. I'm very proud of her. We would never expect such a young child to be so brave but she was amazing. Bless her sweet little heart!
Heartfelt thanks to the many friends and family who prayed and hoped and wished and held their breath with us while we navigated this particular obstacle. We're always grateful and humbled to have such good friends.
We're happy to have this event behind us and now we gratefully resume our regular old life. Whatever that might be this week.