Maddy's Gift (surgery update too)
Yesterday, Maddy brought me a piece of paper with a rainbow and a heart and said "Happy Birthday Mommy! I made you a card. It has a heart on it because I love you!"
It wasn't even my birthday (not until Thursday) but it was the best present I've ever received anyway. Her priceless gift is pictured above. All the artwork in this collage is from her drawings this week (she's 4 year and 1 month old). The photo of Maddy is from this last weekend.
Maddy has grown to be such a talented, independent, generous little girl. She loves to draw pictures and give her beautiful creations to everyone who is special in her life. She takes a picture to school every day. She'll carefully fold it in half and write "Miss Amy" on it and tell me that "Miss Amy will be soooo happy!" Sometimes I want her to give the art to me but I appreciate that she wants Miss Amy to have it even though I'm a little bit envious. But I'll never let on!
My baby girl has her surgery at 7:30 AM tomorrow morning. Much earlier than we ever imagined! So early that we'll have to leave the house at 5:15 just to get there at the 6:00 check-in time. And we'll have to go alone since Daddy must stay home with Gwen to get her off to Miss Amy's class without us. This will be the first time in Gwen's post adoption life that Mommy has not been there to greet her when she wakes up. It's the first time Daddy will ever fix her hair, pack her lunch, and take her to pre-school. It's the first time he'll pick her up and fix her dinner and put her to bed. Obviously, I'm really stressed about how they'll both deal with all these 'firsts'. Meanwhile, Maddy will be at the hospital and she'll want Mommy and her needs are greater than anyone else's right now so I know where I have to be. I'm actually relieved that the choice is so clear cut. But it doesn't keep my heart from wanting to be at home to care for the other half of my family too.
It's times like these when I wish our family lived closer. Our adoption community friends are amazing and we love them so much but we don't really have anyone who lives close enough to help us navigate these rough waters. Thank Goodness they're not rough very often! We do appreciate the comments and private email messages containing warm words and prayer promises. We are so grateful to have such amazing friends and we tell our kids every day how much they are loved by people they don't even know!
I'll be away from the computer for a few days so don't worry if you don't hear anything.