A few thoughts about being a Stay At Home Mom (SAHM)
Daddy has Gwen from 8 to 9 am and 8 to 9 pm and Gwen takes a three hour nap. That's 5 hours. The other 19 hours, she's with me! But I'm not complaining! She's adorable and we really are having fun even though I've never worked so hard in my life! Funny thing is, I've never considered myself to be the SAHM type.
I went back to work 8 weeks after my son was born and didn't regret it. I was blessed to have wonderful day care and his first day care provider remains my very good friend all these years later. In fact, she was one of our adoption references! (Hi Denise!!)
I've worked outside the home since I was 17. I finished HS early and did all of my college while working full time. I've been a court reporter and a pilot, a US Army commissioned officer, a counselor/social worker and a deputy sheriff. But the most amazing job title I've ever held was "full time mom". I know not every mom can afford this luxury (and I'm not being critical of those who can't) but I'm really feeling blessed that we can.
Recently, Gwen fell asleep in a plastic bin containing a bunch of her toys. I loved sitting right there next to her and watching her do this! One second she was playing contently and the next, she was fast asleep! And I had the privilege of seeing her transition from one blissful state to the other with my own eyes! It might not seem like much but these are moments that I missed with my son (now age 17) and I know I can't ever have that time back. But I have it now and I'm thrilled even though I sometimes get tired of baby games and babble and grow lonely for the company of my adult friends. My other China adoption pals are my lifeline to the outside world and I thank all of you so much for being here for me! Both here in cyber land and also in the real world outside! I'm blessed to know you and I'm so excited to know that our babies will grow up together!